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    A good story should provoke discussion,
    debate, argument...and the occasional
    bar fight.
    -- J. Michael Strazynski




    ..:Hilarious Trajedy .:. Katie
    ..: Aerial Ambition .:. Tiff
    ..:Tales from Trent .:. Beej
    ..:Realm of Angst .:. Nikki
    ..:Mad Scientist .:. Bish
    ..:Grey Skye Blue .:. Brynne
    ..:Elected Potatoe .:. Sean
    ..:Magdelina .:. Kat

    ..:Fanthroplogy .:. Research
    ..:Scary Duck .:. Weirdness
    ..:The Dreaming .:. Neil Gaiman
    ..:Whedonesque .:. Joss Whedon
    ..:Photo a Day .:. Something Interesting
    ..:WKOA .:. Odd
    ..:Belle Du Jour .:. Secret Diaries
    ..:Nee Naw .:. Dispatchers Tales
    ..:Confessions of an Aca-Fan .:. Henry Jenkins
    ..:CJSD .:. Brando
    ..:LUTD .:. Tales from the Undeground
    ..:Inky Circus .:. Odd Tales
    ..:Copper's Blog .:. Met Cop
    ..:Occasional Superheroine .:. Marvel Girl
    ..:AE .:. Ed Kennedy's Blog
    ..:Sleep Talkin Man .:. Nocturnal Ramblings
    ..:Blag Hag .:. A Bit of Fun


    ..:Sakura Crisis .:. Manga Scanlations
    ..:Ill Will Press .:. Neurotically Yours.
    ..:The Very Secret Diaries
    ..:Pancino .:. A Kick Ass Indi Band!
    ..:Bubblewrap .:. Boredom
    ..:Threadless .:. Good Clothes
    ..:Magdelina Designs by Kat
    ..:My OCAD .:. Ontario Artists
    ..:Facebook .:. Online People
    ..:The Mall Ninja .:. Redneck Stupidity
    ..:The Penn and Teller Essays
    ..:Tales From Homeward .:. Uncle
    ..:Overheard in the Office
    ..:Evil Mad Scientist Labs
    ..:Cool Aggregator .:. Cultural Oddities
    ..:The Fail Blog .:. Wasting Time
    ..:Cute Overload .:. More Time-Wasters
    ..:My Life Is Average .:. Stranger than Fiction
    ..:Not Always Right .:. Proof Humans R Crazy
    ..:Oddly Specific .:. A Collection of Signs
    ..:1000 Awesome Things .:. Neil Pasricha
    ..:Texts From Last Night .:. Hilarious




    ..:Boy Meets Boy .:. Sandra Fuhr
    ..:Friendly Hostilities .:. Sandra Fuhr
    ..:Other People's Business .:. Sandra Fuhr
    ..:Questionable Content .:. J. Jacques
    ..:Girl Genius .:. Studio Foglio
    ..:XKCD .:. Who The Fuck Knows
    ..:Vampirates .:. Jones
    ..:Cigarro and Cerveja .:. Tony Esteves
    ..:Count Your Sheep .:. Adrian Ramos
    ..:Dog Eat Doug .:. Brian Anderson
    ..:The Awakened .:. Sarah
    ..:Menage A 3 .:. Giz & Dave
    ..:Gingers Bread .:. Carl Sjostrand
    ..:Legend of Bill .:. Dave Reddick
    ..:Brathalla .:. Jeff Stevenson
    ..:SGVY .:. Kittyhawk
    ..:Nice Hair .:. A. Mauchline
    ..:Something Positive .:. R.K. Milholland
    ..:Weregeek .:. Alina Pete
    ..:Schism .:.Leigh Bader
    ..:Least I Could Do .:. Ryan Sohmer
    ..:Basic Insturctions .:. Scott Meyer
    ..:Girls With Slingshots .:. Danielle Corsetto
    ..:Blip .:. Sage
    ..:The Abominable .:. Karl Kercht
    ..:All New Issues .:. Bill
    ..:Just a Little Bit Off .:. Jeff Zugale
    ..:Ctrl+Alt+Del .:. Tim Buckley
    ..:Shortpacked .:. David Willis
    ..:CAD Sillies .:. Tim Buckley
    ..:Looking for Group .:. Ryan Sohmer
    ..:Family Man .:. Dylan Meconis
    ..:White Noise .:. Madsniper
    ..:Magic High .:. Madsniper
    ..:The Dean Show .:. Minkmix
    ..:Saturnalia .:. Spacecoyote
    ..:Pandect.:. Dina Situ
    ..:Arcana .:. Kelly
    ..:Megatokyo .:. Fred Gallagher
    ..:Mini!Marvels .:. ChrisG
    ..:Mac Hall .:. Matt and Ian
    ..:9th Elsewhere .:. Caroline Curtis
    ..:Sluggy Freelance .:. Pete Abrams
    ..:YWAM .:. Aoi Hayashi
    ..:Skyfall .:. Rekka and Mirai
    ..:Picture Diary .:. Lianu
    ..:No Rest For The Wicked .:. Andrea
    ..:Shifters .:. M. Tary and J. Strocel
    ..:Oh My Gods! .:. Shivian







    ..:Ver. 1 .:. Half of Mine
    ..:Ver. 2 .:. Lost Girl
    ..:Ver. 3 .:. Broken Doll
    ..:Ver. 4 .:. Kanashimi
    ..:Ver. 5 .:. Sgoil Dhubh
    ..:Ver. 6 .:. Solas Suarach





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    .:Thursday, February 24:.

    ..:yearning:..

    ..:Listening to: Placebo
    ..:Current Mood: Happy

    Have you ever yearned to do something more than anything in the world and been scared shitless of it at the same time?

    I couldn't sleep, so I decided to do something that I quite literally haven't done in about 4 months. I sat down with my sketchbook and started drawing again.

    This may not seem like a big deal, but my sketchbooks have been a permanent occupent in my bag for almost 15 years, I loved drawing as a kid, it was a way I expressed myself that was all mine. Each stroke of the pen on the paper is so permanent and defining, and a single line can change the whole picture. It can show so many emotions. I look at all my old sketches and I can still remember each and every one of them being drawn, I can look at them and tell you what kind of mood I was in that day and how long it lasted, even if the specific events have long since faded from my memory.

    So I sat in the room with horrible insomnia and I saw an old picture that I had done and I was terrified. I hadn't drawn in so long, what if I had reverted back to the childish scribbles? What if I really had no talent in the first place and it was just friends and relatives making me feel better when they commented on my work.

    I looked at the finished product though and felt so damn great, it's that pleasant feeling that you get after an afternoon of having accomplished something GOOD. Finished reading a book or writing a paper, or working out at the gym and the lingering soreness of the muscles that feels so damn GOOD after a hard workout.

    My hands are all cramped up and I have smudges of ink and lead all over my hands and face and I can honestly say that I haven't felt this good in a very long time.

    If I ever stop sketching for such a long period of time again, for my own mental health lock me in a room with paper and a pen and don't let me out till I've done something.


    Meru at 11:18 PM