Solas Suarach

A good story should provoke discussion,
debate, argument...and the occasional
bar fight.
-- J. Michael Strazynski

..:Hilarious Trajedy .:. Katie
..: Aerial Ambition .:. Tiff
..:Tales from Trent .:. Beej
..:Realm of Angst .:. Nikki
..:Mad Scientist .:. Bish
..:Grey Skye Blue .:. Brynne
..:Elected Potatoe .:. Sean
..:Magdelina .:. Kat

..:Fanthroplogy .:. Research
..:Scary Duck .:. Weirdness
..:The Dreaming .:. Neil Gaiman
..:Whedonesque .:. Joss Whedon
..:Photo a Day .:. Something Interesting
..:WKOA .:. Odd
..:Belle Du Jour .:. Secret Diaries
..:Nee Naw .:. Dispatchers Tales
..:Confessions of an Aca-Fan .:. Henry Jenkins
..:CJSD .:. Brando
..:LUTD .:. Tales from the Undeground
..:Inky Circus .:. Odd Tales
..:Copper's Blog .:. Met Cop
..:Occasional Superheroine .:. Marvel Girl
..:AE .:. Ed Kennedy's Blog
..:Sleep Talkin Man .:. Nocturnal Ramblings
..:Blag Hag .:. A Bit of Fun

..:Sakura Crisis .:. Manga Scanlations
..:Ill Will Press .:. Neurotically Yours.
..:The Very Secret Diaries
..:Pancino .:. A Kick Ass Indi Band!
..:Bubblewrap .:. Boredom
..:Threadless .:. Good Clothes
..:Magdelina Designs by Kat
..:My OCAD .:. Ontario Artists
..:Facebook .:. Online People
..:The Mall Ninja .:. Redneck Stupidity
..:The Penn and Teller Essays
..:Tales From Homeward .:. Uncle
..:Overheard in the Office
..:Evil Mad Scientist Labs
..:Cool Aggregator .:. Cultural Oddities
..:The Fail Blog .:. Wasting Time
..:Cute Overload .:. More Time-Wasters
..:My Life Is Average .:. Stranger than Fiction
..:Not Always Right .:. Proof Humans R Crazy
..:Oddly Specific .:. A Collection of Signs
..:1000 Awesome Things .:. Neil Pasricha
..:Texts From Last Night .:. Hilarious

..:Boy Meets Boy .:. Sandra Fuhr
..:Friendly Hostilities .:. Sandra Fuhr
..:Other People's Business .:. Sandra Fuhr
..:Questionable Content .:. J. Jacques
..:Girl Genius .:. Studio Foglio
..:XKCD .:. Who The Fuck Knows
..:Vampirates .:. Jones
..:Cigarro and Cerveja .:. Tony Esteves
..:Count Your Sheep .:. Adrian Ramos
..:Dog Eat Doug .:. Brian Anderson
..:The Awakened .:. Sarah
..:Menage A 3 .:. Giz & Dave
..:Gingers Bread .:. Carl Sjostrand
..:Legend of Bill .:. Dave Reddick
..:Brathalla .:. Jeff Stevenson
..:SGVY .:. Kittyhawk
..:Nice Hair .:. A. Mauchline
..:Something Positive .:. R.K. Milholland
..:Weregeek .:. Alina Pete
..:Schism .:.Leigh Bader
..:Least I Could Do .:. Ryan Sohmer
..:Basic Insturctions .:. Scott Meyer
..:Girls With Slingshots .:. Danielle Corsetto
..:Blip .:. Sage
..:The Abominable .:. Karl Kercht
..:All New Issues .:. Bill
..:Just a Little Bit Off .:. Jeff Zugale
..:Ctrl+Alt+Del .:. Tim Buckley
..:Shortpacked .:. David Willis
..:CAD Sillies .:. Tim Buckley
..:Looking for Group .:. Ryan Sohmer
..:Family Man .:. Dylan Meconis
..:White Noise .:. Madsniper
..:Magic High .:. Madsniper
..:The Dean Show .:. Minkmix
..:Saturnalia .:. Spacecoyote
..:Pandect.:. Dina Situ
..:Arcana .:. Kelly
..:Megatokyo .:. Fred Gallagher
..:Mini!Marvels .:. ChrisG
..:Mac Hall .:. Matt and Ian
..:9th Elsewhere .:. Caroline Curtis
..:Sluggy Freelance .:. Pete Abrams
..:YWAM .:. Aoi Hayashi
..:Skyfall .:. Rekka and Mirai
..:Picture Diary .:. Lianu
..:No Rest For The Wicked .:. Andrea
..:Shifters .:. M. Tary and J. Strocel
..:Oh My Gods! .:. Shivian

..:Ver. 1 .:. Half of Mine
..:Ver. 2 .:. Lost Girl
..:Ver. 3 .:. Broken Doll
..:Ver. 4 .:. Kanashimi
..:Ver. 5 .:. Sgoil Dhubh
..:Ver. 6 .:. Solas Suarach

.:Thursday, January 28:.
..:Family and Funerals:..

Alright then, first off, yes I am alive. Secondly, to anyone who's been trying to get in touch I apologize, but this has truly been one hell of a month.

Since the last time I updated I have: gained a new appreciation, and a new hatred, for my family. Attended the funeral, gotten the news I'll be moving and possibly a new job. It's been interesting.

First off, on the moving front. Cavan, the guy who's lived in the basememnt of my brothers house for the past decade, has gotten a girlfriend and is moving out with her. This means that my brother and sis-in-law are claiming the basement as their new studio leaving the biggest bedroom upstairs free. It's almost twice the size of my current bedroom and actually gets a decent amount of sunlight unlike my current room, so in April I get to move and actually truly unpack all my stuff that I had instorage for the past few years simply because I lacked the room to spread out.

I applied to, and have been reviewed for, a job at the local bookstore. I hope I get it as I would love to start my new year by starting in a field I love for once and maybe actually being HAPPY at a job.

To KT:

Apparently this is gencon, held in oz. I want to go

Be warned: The rest of this is pretty much just me ranting about the family and is likely of very little interest to anyone else.

The funeral. The funeral was held on the 17th, piled into a car with all my siblings and my dad and drove down to meet my mum who had been in Windsor for the past week making all the arrangements and settling out all the accounts. My mum was... a bit of a wreck, but I think it did her alot of good to know that all her children came to the funeral of a woman we despised simply to support her through this.

The funeral itself was interesting. My grandmother was a cryptographer in the 2nd world war so they had a full military service before the main funeral itself. The funeral service was polite, and very solemn.

Then came the surreal part of the day.

After the service, we were approached by dozens of people, old neighbors, fellow servicemen and women, fellow chruch go'ers, etc. And the person they talked about? They painted this picture of a woman who was funny, and honourable and sweet, and kind and nice to everyone. Always willing to lend a hand and go the extra mile. I never met that woman in my life. The woman I knew was bitter, and jaded, and petty, and has tried my entire life to sabotage my parents marriage as she never believed my father was "good enough" for my mother. My parents are HAPPY, my dad still makes my mum laugh after 30 years of marriage and losing their first-born son, something no parent should ever have to go through. If for no other reason than that, I would hate her, but there was more.

When I was 13 or 14 I showed up one summer at the cottage wearing a tank top, nothing low cut or with thin straps, just a normal tank because it was a rather hot summer. Grandma? Looked me up and down and told me I looked like a whore, and proceeded to completely ignore the fact that I existed for the rest of the visit. She told my brother terrible things, and after her and my dad got into a massive fight about the way she was treating us, she told my father that she'd get back at him. That was 10 years ago, she never really talked to any of us since then.

I could have dealt with that, but what really hurt? finding out that she went out of her way to stay involved with every other grandchild EXCEPT US as a way to hurt my father, and in doing so devestated my mother with her pettiness and bitterness.

So the funeral? Was truly an excersise in holding my tongue and not telling people the real story behind the old harridan.

On the other hand, I got to meet a few cousins I hadn't seen since I was a little girl, and they grew up to be some really cool people that I'm going to try and keep in touch with, the type of people I'd be proud to say are family.

Unfortunately, they Aunts and Uncles did not leave me with such a changed impression. My mother had 4 siblings, her brother Jim, and sisters Carol, Jo and Pam. And none of them really talk to each other, past actions and life choices split my mothers family apart, and after what they did after the funeral it wouldn't suprise me to hear that none of them ever talk to one another ever again.

Every item that was not willed to someone? Became a battle for who got what, down to the smallest thing, with my mother stuck as the referee as the executor of the will. Needless to say, if I ever see ANY of the aunts again there is not a chance of hell in me keeping silent after what they put my mother through.

Me and my mum are headed back up on tuesday to clear out the last of the big stuff and take it off to goodwill or the cottage, so at least after this week it will be completely over and done with. Honestly though? I walked away from all this just sad, that she hated so much that she punished others for it, and that life stripped away the beautiful funny woman my grandfather married after the war.

On the other hand, all this made me gain a new appreciation of just how much I love and am thankful for my immediate family.

Labels: family, funeral, jobs, Moving, random ranting

Meru at 8:00 PM

.:Friday, August 15:.
..:Getting rid of a few links:..

Okay, few odd things I've run accross while surfing about:

First off, absolutely awesome news: JOHNNY DEPP IS PLAYING THE MADD HATTER!!. I love Tim Burton, both because of the really cool films and because that man has a ridiculous man-crush on Johnny Depp. Awesome.

A really cool steampunk Jewelry creator. Seriously, I want about half of these.

The best sculpture EVAR!! The day I buy a house I demand this as a housewarming present!

The Fail Blog. A good waste of time at least....

And last, I am considering buying this and I don't even have my license yet...

Labels: boredom, Iron man, random ranting, steampunk, zombies

Meru at 12:45 PM

.:Sunday, April 6:.
..:Just Finished:..

I just finished watching both the Dr. Who Premier and the Torchwood season finale.

I think my brain is BROKEN.

I can't even blog, must go do something that requires no thought process... like re-organize cupboards...

BROKEN!

Labels: doctor who, random ranting, torchwood

Meru at 5:07 PM

.:Wednesday, March 26:.
..:Ranting:..

Anyone up for some good quality ranting? go to KT's Blog Here and read her most recent post, I spent a good few minutes yelling at my computer till I realised I had caused the cat to flee in terror and he is now cowering in the closet. Ooops.

Just got back from the docs, I get to stay on the lovely mind numbing antibiotics for another 2 weeks, but then they say if I'm not better than they have no real clue what's wrong with me. Stupid wankers.

Still no luck finding a new job, and spent alot of last nights shift in quite a bit of pain seeing as the entire shift is spent on my feet and my boss "requested" that I work a double to cover someone who was sick. Grr.

Now: I have a question to put forth to everyone: I need songs and such that you associated with the following shows: Dr. Who, Torchwood, Bones, Stargate, Stargate Atlantis and NCIS.

Any suggestions would be good, am kinda interested to see what people come up with.

Labels: help, random ranting, work

Meru at 10:20 AM

.:Sunday, January 20:.
..:Pics and such for KT:..

Alright, this is mainly a post for KT, who requested before she leave, some pics of the lot of us over the past few years. I wasn't able to print them off, but this should amuse everyone anyway....

Click on the pics to make them bigger, same as usual.....

Ah the first pirate festival..... small, but lots of fun. Although the Toronto Skyline in the background isn't very piratous.....

Tiff being an utter tool and KT trying her damndest not to laugh her ass off at her...

Unce and DA-DA-DA-DA-DA, I think this was Ohayoucon last year...

This is one of Bish's photo's, put up because she is an AWESOME PHOTOGRAPHER..... the lot of us walking around TO in Ren Gear... if I recall properly we got honked at a hell of a lot...

This is by far the strangest face I have ever seen KT make on film.....

THE HAT (yes it deserves it's own capital letters) We may never be able to actually afford this damn thing, but we can try it on every time and take a bunch of daft pictures of ourselves...

Tiff just before the Masquerade at North a few years back... her and her bloody corsets....

Me and the TARDIS, this was taken at TorontoTrek (T-con). I got the living SHIT mocked out of me for insisting on having my pic taken, but maybe NOW you lot will understand..

Okay, this thing was FUCKING SCARY!! No really, a lifesize Spawn... it was CREEPY!

I call this Tiff's WAAAAAAH face. Appropriate I think, she reminds me of lucy off of I Love Lucy reruns at times...

OK, so this guy was wandering about the con molesting people with a squid.....
No I am not kidding.
Funny reactions from fans tho...

The giant pink blob that was dubbed "Squishy McFee". For some reason anything Tiff names is automatically ridiculour and Scottish.

Star Wars Vs. Who....... Not really a photo of the lot of us, but worth a few giggles at least.

The BOOTS (they also deserve their own capital letters) That 'Sunta spent a ridiculous amount of money on and which I am so damn jelous of....

For some reason this photo always made me thing of Shepard Book from Firefly, therefor it has been titled The Hair..
"River, he's putting the hair away now..."
"But it will still be there.... waiting."

Fans having a bit of a laugh at AN, god I love the fans minds sometimes....

Me and Tiff relaxing a bit at the con, sitting in the middle of a stairwell landing in some damn strange outfits and reading Pr0n.

Me and KT collapsing a bit at the Pirate fest.

The group of us after the Ren faire, another of Bish's awesome photo's

KT and the squid of doom, I think it likes her....

Nikki and Rambo the sheep.
I believe when they gave it to me it said on the card something along the lines of "In honour of your Scottish heritage, when men were men and sheep were nervous."