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    .:Thursday, January 28:.

    ..:Family and Funerals:..

    Alright then, first off, yes I am alive. Secondly, to anyone who's been trying to get in touch I apologize, but this has truly been one hell of a month.

    Since the last time I updated I have: gained a new appreciation, and a new hatred, for my family. Attended the funeral, gotten the news I'll be moving and possibly a new job. It's been interesting.

    First off, on the moving front. Cavan, the guy who's lived in the basememnt of my brothers house for the past decade, has gotten a girlfriend and is moving out with her. This means that my brother and sis-in-law are claiming the basement as their new studio leaving the biggest bedroom upstairs free. It's almost twice the size of my current bedroom and actually gets a decent amount of sunlight unlike my current room, so in April I get to move and actually truly unpack all my stuff that I had instorage for the past few years simply because I lacked the room to spread out.

    I applied to, and have been reviewed for, a job at the local bookstore. I hope I get it as I would love to start my new year by starting in a field I love for once and maybe actually being HAPPY at a job.

    To KT:


    Apparently this is gencon, held in oz. I want to go

    Be warned: The rest of this is pretty much just me ranting about the family and is likely of very little interest to anyone else.

    The funeral. The funeral was held on the 17th, piled into a car with all my siblings and my dad and drove down to meet my mum who had been in Windsor for the past week making all the arrangements and settling out all the accounts. My mum was... a bit of a wreck, but I think it did her alot of good to know that all her children came to the funeral of a woman we despised simply to support her through this.

    The funeral itself was interesting. My grandmother was a cryptographer in the 2nd world war so they had a full military service before the main funeral itself. The funeral service was polite, and very solemn.

    Then came the surreal part of the day.

    After the service, we were approached by dozens of people, old neighbors, fellow servicemen and women, fellow chruch go'ers, etc. And the person they talked about? They painted this picture of a woman who was funny, and honourable and sweet, and kind and nice to everyone. Always willing to lend a hand and go the extra mile. I never met that woman in my life. The woman I knew was bitter, and jaded, and petty, and has tried my entire life to sabotage my parents marriage as she never believed my father was "good enough" for my mother. My parents are HAPPY, my dad still makes my mum laugh after 30 years of marriage and losing their first-born son, something no parent should ever have to go through. If for no other reason than that, I would hate her, but there was more.

    When I was 13 or 14 I showed up one summer at the cottage wearing a tank top, nothing low cut or with thin straps, just a normal tank because it was a rather hot summer. Grandma? Looked me up and down and told me I looked like a whore, and proceeded to completely ignore the fact that I existed for the rest of the visit. She told my brother terrible things, and after her and my dad got into a massive fight about the way she was treating us, she told my father that she'd get back at him. That was 10 years ago, she never really talked to any of us since then.

    I could have dealt with that, but what really hurt? finding out that she went out of her way to stay involved with every other grandchild EXCEPT US as a way to hurt my father, and in doing so devestated my mother with her pettiness and bitterness.

    So the funeral? Was truly an excersise in holding my tongue and not telling people the real story behind the old harridan.

    On the other hand, I got to meet a few cousins I hadn't seen since I was a little girl, and they grew up to be some really cool people that I'm going to try and keep in touch with, the type of people I'd be proud to say are family.

    Unfortunately, they Aunts and Uncles did not leave me with such a changed impression. My mother had 4 siblings, her brother Jim, and sisters Carol, Jo and Pam. And none of them really talk to each other, past actions and life choices split my mothers family apart, and after what they did after the funeral it wouldn't suprise me to hear that none of them ever talk to one another ever again.

    Every item that was not willed to someone? Became a battle for who got what, down to the smallest thing, with my mother stuck as the referee as the executor of the will. Needless to say, if I ever see ANY of the aunts again there is not a chance of hell in me keeping silent after what they put my mother through.

    Me and my mum are headed back up on tuesday to clear out the last of the big stuff and take it off to goodwill or the cottage, so at least after this week it will be completely over and done with. Honestly though? I walked away from all this just sad, that she hated so much that she punished others for it, and that life stripped away the beautiful funny woman my grandfather married after the war.

    On the other hand, all this made me gain a new appreciation of just how much I love and am thankful for my immediate family.

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    Meru at 8:00 PM

    .:Thursday, March 12:.

    ..:Count 'em out:..

    OK, so, my recapped life for the last few months. Am no longer working for the Evil-Trucking-Company-O-Doom (tm). Unfortunately got laid off in November due to seasonal slowdowns.

    Of course, with my wonderful luck, a week and a half after I became unemployed and therefore unable to afford repairs, my beautiful compy suffered a rather inglorious death. So naturally there has been no blogging. It has slumbered ever since, waiting for the moment when it can re-awaken and TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!!! BWA HA HA HA!!!

    ... ahem. Sorry, read FH recently, it affects me.


    So, spent the tag end of November and all of December going to a series of successively more frustrating interviews, and bumming about with Jenn, Tiff and KT who had come home for a visit. Was fun, went to the spa for Christmas (awesome, really really awesome), spent the whole day up there bumming about in the hot pools and saunas and such, surrounded by trees that looked gilded in glass from the condensation freezing to ice, and shaking icicles out of our own hair. Spent some time in one of the warm sun rooms, 15 ft windows in the middle of winter, and us lying about in bathing suits, very discordant, sweet.

    Unfortunately, December was also spent packing up as loss of job = loss of money = moving into Brampton house so I can afford to eat.

    So, I spent a few weeks up at the house in Brampton, painting what was to be my room and buying various fixtures and such, then moved in mid-December with Little odds and ends coming up as they would for the rest of the month.

    Really enjoy living there tho, Brampton, not so much, but I missed living in an actual house. Room for my 2 cats and Kat and Drew's 2 cats (yes we have 4 cats, feel free to make jokes). A real kitchen, with a variety of appliances and more than one pan in the whole place, oh! And a sis-in-law who loves to cook and feed people amazing meals every night, all I have to do is whatever meat I may want to eat as they're both vegetarians. Also get access to the studio, which is amazing, they have so many funky tools and supplies and such that I would usually never think of but now my brain has practically exploded with art ideas. V. Cool.

    So, spent the first week of Jan re-painting the living room and hall as I had nothing better to do and Kat and Drew were on vacation, turned out fairly well if I do say so myself. Still have to tackle the bathrooms and the kitchen, but that is gonna be a weekend project (if I ever get another free one that is).

    Then came the jobs.

    I have; not one, not two, but count 'em, three jobs at the moment.

    Monday to Friday I work 8-5 at an auto shop doing admin work, really nice company, swanky office as we work mainly with BMW, and some really great people to work with. Then, I grab my car or a train and haul ass out to Woodbine where I'm an assistant manager at one of the stores out there, good people, some real ding-bats too, and good DE-stressing with the cleaning. Then, if I have the time, Fridays and Saturday nights I can be found tending bar for parties in the GTA.

    I've been doing this for almost a month now, I'm just a wee bit tired.

    But, I'm slowly clawing my way back to financial security, and hoping to save enough to head out to BC for a few weeks this summer (anyone wanna come?).

    In the meantime, I have practically no real life aside from being dragged out by friends and siblings for movies and such, but you know, I sleep really really well now and I'm rather proud of myself really.

    And this past weekend? Was the Watchmen weekend. Good gods did I love that movie, absolutely brilliant. PERFECTLY cast, the changes added to the story, and JDM was awesome as usual (I love that man). So. Very. Happy. Also? May gets us a bunch of freaking amazing movies this year; Public Enemies (Christian Bale, and Johnny Depp as old school cops and robbers, squee!), Wolverine (commence drooling. Also the new Terminator movie (after the most recent trailer it looks like it actually might not suck, altho all the ships look a hell of a lot like Serenity...) Up (new Pixar, totally going to that with Tiff, she's always a blast to see those with) and the newest Star Trek movie, which, with each successive trailer I see I just get MORE excited about. Again, so. Very. Happy.

    So, this weekend is dinner with Jenn, hopefully in a few weeks I can drag her out to see Fast & Furious with me. (yeah, yeah, laugh it up, but that man is my guilty pleasure).

    My Birthday is in a few weeks as well, not really that excited, another year, ho-hum. I think I'll just do a night out with the girls....

    Relationships.... have been an absolute nightmare. A series of dumb guys, one weird stalkery guy who won't take a hint, one girl whom it unfortunately didn't work with as I never get to see her, and one guy who is currently unavailable. Bugger.

    Hmm, at work now, office is freezing cold for some reason, I am praising the genius who invented those little hand and boot warmers, for they are absolutely AWESOME and have kept me sane today, off to work at the store tonight, should probably get back to work now. You know, productivity and all that.

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    Meru at 1:10 PM

    .:Wednesday, July 23:.

    ..:Sick, oh so very sick:..

    Mere is sick yet again (suprise suprise). Colds I can deal with, you just stock up on cough sweets and kleenex. Even the flu I can deal with, cause I know it will run it's course and I can just lie down till I feel better.

    But there's nothing I hate more than waking up sick first thing in the morning and not even being able to get up because I'm so damn dizzy.

    Took yesterday off of work, am back today, even though the world is till fairly spinny and I'm still avoiding any kind of solid food.

    Blah.

    Good news however, Gracie is in town, which means my hair can go back to being a violent shade of purple again. Happy about that.

    Also? Anyone want to get me a kickass present one of these days? Get me one of these.

    Our apartment currently has no power, had to dress in the dark this morning and ended up with my hair sticking up all over the place, thank god for hair clips, otherwise I'd look like cousin it from the adams family.

    Have been running over a bunch of things in my head recently, what I'm going to be doing over the next few years and what I want to do with myself. I love my apartment, but there's a good chance I'll be leaving it in the next year or so. Jenn is almost definitely buying the property for her farm, and will be leaving as soon as she has a livable space built on property. Tiff and KT are both talking about staying in toronto or heading off to finish up degrees or shows, so everything is kind of up in the air at the moment.

    I'm considering just screwing it all, taking a chance and moving to Wales. My mum and dad are both leaving this year, and the rest of the family is always so frantically busy that I never see them anyway, so I started looking into taking a few general ed courses and a small business course and looking into working in a library or a bookshop over there.

    If I end up going over to the UK with KT in October, will definitely be looking about for what might be availible over there.

    Am also looking into possibly moving over to BC if I want to stay in the country, will still be able to go to a good uni for library sciences, stay in Canada and live in a beautiful place, but I'd have to wait until after the 2010 olympics as land out there is currently insanely expensive. Blah.

    I just don't want to stay stuck in ontario for the rest of my life, I genuinely don't like it here, but I have no freaking clue what to do.

    Guess I'll just have to see what the next year brings

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    Meru at 9:07 AM

    .:Saturday, January 5:.

    ..:Christmas, parties and moving:..

    So. Christmas and such. Got some sweet presents, including the compy I am currently typing this entry on. It is..... so very shiny. And bloody HUGE. The screen is bigger than my first TV and I have no clue what half the programs on this thing actually DO. But damn is it sweet.

    Also got a couple of good comics and a small singing Mogwai that has the ability to scare the living shite out of everything and anything. KT's party was fun, nerdgasm on friday consisted of much geekage and alot of fun. The pub on saturday was both fun and slightly embarassing, just what a pub night should be. And then there was sunday, when we were SUPPOSED to go skating, but instead stood in line for over an hour waiting for skates, then decided fuck it and went out to see a movie instead. Sweeney Todd is awesome BTW.

    Then there was this past week, where me and Jenn moved to the building across the courtyard, new apartment is AWESOME. The floors are even and the ceiling doesn't look as if it's about to cave in on us at any second. And since the walls are actually straight everything fits in my room properly without me shoving things and shouting at them for a few hours to make them fit.

    Awesome.

    And now to KT's to say goodbye, as one of our number leaves us for Australia's sunny shore.... bint.

    KT, the first time you call me and brag about the weather I'll drag you're brains out thriugh your NOSE.

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    Meru at 3:04 PM

    .:Monday, April 16:.

    ..:Weekend:..

    So, this weekend kinda blew. Was planning to head downtown on fri to celebrate the end of school for a couple of friends, made a quick stop at the bank to try and grab some cash for drinking an gas for the next day. Get in and it says I don't have enough money. I'm confused seeing as I just got payed on the Thurs and should have plenty of cash so I call my bank.

    My insurance pulled the money for the next 2 payment pre-maturely. Didn't even have enough for gas to get downtown. Bloody stupid banks, think I'll take KT's advice and bury my money in a box in the backyard (when I get a backyard that is..... maybe I'll hide it in the walls for now)

    So pretty much spent the weekend finishing all the non-essetial packing and working on a few projects while being entertained by Nyx.

    So, kittens? Pretty much the least threatening thing in existence. I was playing with Nyx and he was doing that little stalking thing that all cats do with toys, then he let out this absolutely pathetic sounding growl and pounced.

    And slipped.

    And fell off the bed.

    And got stuck in the laundry hamper.

    Yeah, I'm pretty much never gonna be able to take the little squirt seriously.

    He is pretty much fearless though. He jumps on bookshelves way too high for him, has gotten stuck in multiple boxes and cupboards and on one occasion a rolled up rug. (That was fun to figure out) And has simply sat there and stared while another cat growled and hissed at him. Wasn't the least bit scared and immediately tried to go to the other cat to investigate.

    Daft kitten.

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    Meru at 1:18 PM